Temenos Journal II

August 3, 2011

The Gift of My Mother’s Heart

Joanne Fudella

Me & my mother Joanne Fudella (1930 - 1994)

My mother’s will to live was so strong that her continued survival baffled the doctors. My sister, a nurse, said, “There is no medical reason for our mother to be alive. She is living on only 5% capacity of her heart. She is living on spirit alone.”

In an accident that my mother called “the mystery of my married life,” she made a wrong turn exiting the bathroom one night and fell down the basement stairs. She broke her nose, her wrist, her foot, and badly injured her back. The fall would have killed a healthy person. But Mom hung on for another month. “I’m not ready to die,” she would say.
Two days before she died, my father was visiting her in the hospital when he passed out right in her room and had to be taken to the emergency ward. My mother, never a religious woman, prayed in earnest for the first time in her life, I think.
It turned out that my father, a borderline diabetic, had fainted from low blood sugar. He was released and was able to walk back into her room within a couple of hours. “Now I know there is a God,” my mother told me later that evening.
The next day, when I went to visit my mother at the hospice, she had an aura of peace around her. She took my hand in hers and was very excited and joyful. “I understand now, Honey! I finally understand! If your music makes you as happy as my music has made me, then you go for it, Honey. And don’t let anyone stop you!”
My mother passed away peacefully in her sleep that evening, after she ate some vanilla ice cream. She was ready. But not before she had given me her blessing. It is my most cherished gift.
Happy Birthday, Mom


  1. Happy Birthday, Joanne! Love, Jerry Avila

    Comment by Jerry Avila — August 3, 2011 @ 1:14 pm |Reply

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